Another June another journey

This morning I’m awake with a sudden thought. The thought of everything is different now. Starting this day, I don’t live the life I used to live anymore. The person who always told me that I’m the world is a stranger now and I’m no one but a stranger too.

When you already living your life believing that someone is depending on you, that someone can’t live without you, it’s going to be hard to believing otherwise. Somehow it’s like standing in a ground that’s starting to break…

I repeatedly whispering to myself, you’re going to be okay, everything is going to be okay but somehow I know its going to be tough, its going to be hard.

I can’t give up. not now.

The pain I felt, I will never surrender to this hell…

I keep asking myself, what have I done, where did I gone wrong…

I can’t find the answer as I can’t find myself. I’m lost…

But I have to keep going, I can’t stop. I just have to keep going…

The journey is waiting,  I have to let you go.

It’s a new June and I’m sure a new journey is waiting for me.

Hey 33, how are you?

 

 

Sayonara

For a brief moment in my life I really thought that I’m able to forgive you and accept everything the way it was and then I realize that it doesn’t matter anymore.

I was holding onto memories that only exist in my head. I was wrong, for all this time I was wrong and it took a very long time for me to realize and to see the truth.

No, I don’t accept anything but truth. You lie to me once and I will never believe in your words anymore.

Believing in your lies was like living in a sand castle at a seashore and when the waves come it disappear all at once. I’m wet and have nowhere to go.

Maybe it’s best for me to erase the memories, one by one, day by day, step by step, maybe it’s hard but it’s not impossible.

I guess we’ve come to an end, this time for real.

Sayonara,,,,

 

 

Why

The kind of question that I keep asking when things go wrong. 

That moment when I think I already do my best but nothing good happen, my good thing is measured by the way I want it to happen exactly as the way I want… But I guess the questions why only occur when I didn’t understand. As far as I concern, no matter what I do or will do, what’s suppose to happen will happen eventually. What meant together will find a way.

There’s only this curiosity towards all the good things that happen to those mean people? Why after all that things they had done, good things still happen to them? While when you’re already do your best, still you don’t get what you’ve wished for. 

When things don’t go the way you want,I guess it’s normal to feel disappointed no? When THEE keep giving you the same script over and over, isn’t it normal for you to feel unfair, uneasy, unhappy. When you think you had manage it well and turn out THEE still give you the same script again and it hit you, maybe you’re doing it wrong, for all this time, maybe you don’t have to defend yourself, maybe you just have to let it go…..

But, are you sincere? 
No, of course you’re not because you’re not an angel, because if you’re an angel then you’re going to be in heaven not this filthy earth.
And the question hit you again. Why? Why me? What have I done? Why? 
Why? 

There’s Nothing – Jung Yeop Brown Eyed Soul’s

Salmyeosi nunmuri musimko heulleowa
Secretly, tears unconsciously fall
Nega ssitgyeo naerilkka bwa su eopsi humchyeonae
I tried to wash, wipe it away many times
Ji ul su itneunde ijeul su itneunde
Though I can erase, though i can forget,
Neo eopneun nal amuri saenggakaedo nunmuri
No matter how you think, without you i cry..
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Amu maldo eopseotdeon niga tteonagan geon niga
I didn’t say anything, You went away
Anigil jebal
It’s not, please
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Dorawado gwaenchana dorawado gwaenchana
Come back to me, Come back please..
Jamsi neowa meoreojyeotdeon kkumil geoya
We separate for a while, And It’s just a dream
Amu ildo eopseotda amu ildo eopseotda
It’s a dream, just a dream
I bami jina kkae eonamyeon dasi neowa
If this night passes and I wake up, come again
Mameuro doenoe eo ipeuro doenoe eo
Keep replaying it over my mouth and my heart
Neoreul ireobeorilkka bwa su eopsi doesaegyeo
I keep reminding myself that I lost you
Ji ul su itneunde ijeul su itneunde
Though I can erase, though i can forget,
Neo eopneun amuri saenggakaedo duryeowo
No matter how you think, I’m scared without you
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Amu maldo eopseotdeon niga tteonagan geon niga
I didn’t say anything, You went away
Anigil jebal
It’s not, please
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Dorawado gwaenchana dorawado gwaenchana
Come back to me, Come back please..
Jamsi neowa meoreojyeotdeon kkumil geoya
We separate for a while, And It’s just a dream
Amu ildo eopseotda amu ildo eopseotda
It’s a dream, just a dream
I bami jina kkae eonamyeon
If this night passes and I wake up,
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Dorawado gwaenchana dorawado gwaenchana
Come back to me, Come back please..
Saranghae neol ajikdo neol jebal jebal
Please, please, I still love you
Amu ildo eopseotda amu ildo eopseotda
It’s a dream, just a dream
I bami jina kkae eonamyeon dasi neowa
If this night passes and I wake up, come again

La Vie En Rose – Edith Piaf

La Vie En Rose

Des tux qui font baisser les miens
Un rire qui se perd sur sa bouche
Voilà le portrait sans retouche
De l’homme auquel j’appartiens
Quand il me prend dans ses bras
Il me parle tout bas
Je vois la vie en rose
Il me dit des mots d’amour
Des mots de tous les jours
Et ça me fait quelque chose
Il est entré dans mon coeur
Une part de bonheur
Dont je connais la cause
C’est lui pour moi, moi pour lui dans la vie
Il me l’a dit, l’a juré pour la vie
Et dès que je l’aperçois
Alors je sens en moi
Mon coeur qui bat
Des nuits d’amour à plus finir
Un grand bonheur qui prend sa place
Les ennuis, les chagrins s’effacent
Heureux, heureux à en mourir
Quand il me prend dans ses bras
Il me parle tout bas
Je vois la vie en rose
Il me dit des mots d’amour
Des mots de tous les jours
Et ça me fait quelque chose
Il est entré dans mon coeur
Une part de bonheur
Dont je connais la cause
C’est toi pour moi, moi pour lui dans la vie
Il me l’a dit, l’a juré pour la vie
Et dès que je l’aperçois
Alors je sens en moi
Mon coeur qui bat

Lee Young Hyun – 화답 (Response)

Romanization

Eonjena son naemilmyeon daheuldeuthan geugoseseo isseulkkeyo
Gippeulttaemyeon naega meonjo hwanhage useojulkkeyo
Ireon nado geudael saranghaeyo

Babogatdan geureon mareun hajimayo
Gomawotdan geureonmaldo hajimayo
Geudaega naegyeote inneun geotmaneuro
Geugeotmaneuro nan haengbokhajyo

Haruharu gyeondilsu eobdeon sigan do
Maeil maeil jichyeogadeon nae ilsang do
Geudaega isseoseo geudareul mannaseo
Jigeumkkeot gyeondilsuga isseojwo

Eonjena son naemilmyeon daheuldeuthan geugoseseo isseulkkeyo
Gippeulttaemyeon naega meonjeo hwanhage useojulkkeyo
Gomawoyo~ ireon nado babogatjyo

Eonjena nuneultteumyeon boildeuthan geogoseseo isseulkkeyo
Neul gyeoteseo geudaeman barabomyeon
Bujokhan nal geudaega da heorakhandamyeon

Kkeutchi obseul geotman gatdeon geu sarangttaemune
Wenji nado tto nunmuri na yo

Eonjena son naemilmyeon daheuldeuthan geugoseseo isseulkkeyo
Seulpeulttaemyeon naega meonjeo geudaereul anajulkkeyo
Gomawoyo~ ireon nado babogatjyo~ oh~

Eonjena nal beureumyeon deurideuthan geugoseseo isseulkkeyo
Neul gyeoteseo geudaeman barabomyeon
Bujokhan nal geudaega da heorakhandamyeon

English Translation

Whenever your hands out for help, I’ll be there to reach your hand
When you’re happy, I’ll be the first person who gives you a bright smile
This kind of me, also love you

Don’t say that I look like a fool
You don’t even have to say “thank you”
To have you by my side
Just by that makes me happy

The time I can’t bear day by day
And also the tiredness I felt everyday
Because you’re there, because I met you
Just like now, I can bear it

Whenever your hands out for help, I’ll be there to reach your hand
When you’re happy, I’ll be the first person who gives you a bright smile
Thank you, this kind of me looks like fool

Whenever you open your eyes, I’ll be there around your sight
I’ll always by your side, looking at you
If only you can accept the deficient me

Because of this never-ended-love
Why do I keep crying like this

Whenever your hands out for help, I’ll be there to reach your hand
When you’re sad, I will be the first person who hugs you.
Thank you, this kind of me looks like a fool

Whenever you calling out my name, I’ll be around where I can hear you
I’ll always by your side, looking at you
If only you can accept all the deficient me

Kim Junsu “You are so beautiful” – OST. Scent of a woman

HANGUL

지금 난 너의 눈을 보며 운다 네 맘을 보며 운다
애써 해맑게도 쓴웃음 짓는 그 표정에
너를 담아두고 싶다 그 바보같이 예쁜 꿈들과 어설픈 모습을
하루하루 네 모습이 추억을 만들어나 기억해 네 여린 손 흩어진 머리까지도

(Forever you) You are so beautiful
내 가슴에 밀려와 스며와 다가와 번진 네 상처도
(Forever you) You are so wonderful
시린 네 사랑도 네 눈물도 내 아픈 상처를 지우죠
널 사랑한다 널 사랑한다

이제는 너를 안아주고 싶다
그 차가운 세상 끝에 홀로 서성이던 널
하루하루 내 사랑이 네 맘을 위로해
상처 난 네 가슴에 내 기억들을 담는다

(Forever you) You are so beautiful
내 가슴에 밀려와 스며와 다가와 번진 네 상처도
(Forever you) You are so wonderful
시린 네 사랑도 네 눈물도 내 아픈 상처를 지우죠
널 사랑한다 널 사랑한다

한순간조차 잊지 말아요 얼마나 얼마나
사랑했는지 기억해요 For you

You are so beautiful
내 가슴에 밀려와 스며와 다가와 번진 네 상처도
(Forever you) You are so wonderful
시린 네 사랑도 네 눈물도 내 아픈 상처를 지우죠
널 사랑한다 널 사랑한다

네 기억으로 살고 싶다

ROMANIZATION

Jigeum nan neoui nooneul bomyeo oonda nae mameul bomyeo oonda
Aessuh haemalggaedo sseunooseum jitneun geu pyojungae
Neoreul damadoogo shipda geu babogachi yaeppeun ggomdeulgwa uhseolpun moseupeul
Haruharu nae moseupi chooeokeul mandeureo Na giyukhae nae yeorin sohn heutuhjin meoriggajido

(Forever you) You are so beautiful
Nae gaseumae milryeowa seumyeowa dagawa beonjin nae sangcheodo
(Forever you) You are so wonderful
Shirin nae sarangdo nae noonmeuldo nae apeun sangcheoreul jiwoojo
Neol saranghanda neol saranghanda

Ijaeneun neoreul anajoogo shipda
Geu chagawoon saesang ggeutae whollo seoseongidun neol
Haruharu nae sarangi nae mameul wirohae
Sangcheo nan gaseumae nae giukdeulreul damneunda

(Forever you) You are so beautiful
Nae gaseumae milryeowa seumyeowa dagawa beonjin nae sangcheodo
(Forever you) You are so wonderful
Shirin nae sarangdo nae noonmeuldo nae apeun sangcheoreul jiwoojo
Neol saranghanda neol saranghanda

Hansoonganjocha itji marayo eolmana eolmana
Saranghaetneunji giukhaeyo For you

You are so beautiful
Nae gaseumae milryeowa seumyeowa dagawa beonjin nae sangcheodo
(Forever you) You are so wonderful
Shirin nae sarangdo nae noonmeuldo nae apeun sangcheoreul jiwoojo
Neol saranghanda neol saranghanda

Nae giukeuro salgo shipda

ENGLISH

Right now, I cry as I look into your eyes, I cry as I look into your heart
At your expression and bitter smile, though you try to smile brightly
I want to keep you in my mind, those foolishly beautiful dreams and lacking moments
Making you a memory every day, I remember your frail hand and scattered strands of hair

(Forever you) You are so beautiful
Even your pains that surge into, permeate, approach and spread throughout my heart
(Forever you) You are so wonderful
Even your cold love and even your tears erase my throbbing pains
I love you I love you

Now, I want to embrace you
You, who hovered at the edge of that cold world alone
Every day, my love soothes your heart
And it fills your wounded heart with memories of me

(Forever you) You are so beautiful
Even your pains that surge into, permeate, approach and spread throughout my heart
(Forever you) You are so wonderful
Even your cold love and even your tears erase my throbbing pains
I love you I love you

Don’t forget, even for a moment. Just how much, just how much
we loved each other. Remember, For you

You are so beautiful
Even your pains that surge into, permeate, approach and spread throughout my heart
(Forever you) You are so wonderful
Even your cold love and even your tears erase my throbbing pains
I love you I love you

I want to live as a part of your memories

Source: [Cyworld Music]
Translated & Shared by: melodiamuse
Re-up by: C

Beauty is in the eye of the beholder

I guess it’s occurred that everything is depends on one’s perspective.

How you see things, how you describe things.

For me, a dew drop on the edge of a leaves is one of a kind beauty, the sound of a wind chime and all the little things in life.

I’m learning that when we have gratitude in our heart, everything is beautiful and no gratitude will make us suffer, like a consuming black hole.

As a human with a fickle heart, we may find that life sometimes unfair. We thought that we already did our best, do good to others, turns out that no matter how kind we treat others people will always have something to say.